admire the ordinary

Chapter 9

Mu Fan brought Lulu, a man and a cat, to a mountain village surrounded by mountains. The blue sky, the fierce cold wind hurt Mu Fan's skin, and this small village on the barren land seemed to be sleeping peacefully. , dilapidated houses, old people and children in shabby clothes, a place where ordinary people struggle to escape, but Mu Fan's eyes reveal a deep yearning... If you can stay here for the rest of your life, it would be great.

Mu Fan heard about this poor and old place by accident in the car...

"My hometown is so fucking poor!" a bearded man said to a man wearing rimless glasses.

"..." The man on the side looked at him with a smile and didn't speak.

"But you don't know, ours was the former revolutionary base! Don't underestimate ours." The bearded man said with bright eyes, seeming a little proud.

"Really..." With a gentle smile, the elegant man took out water and put it on the table, and the bearded man continued after taking two sips.

"Of course it's true. Our place is blocked by a mountain. Without a car, devils can't get in. It was safe back then, but now it's a disadvantage. It takes half an hour to go to a small county outside by car..."

A light flashed in Mu Fan's eyes who happened to hear this conversation... This is a good place...

"I remember when I was young, some big leader went to our place to help the poor. The village head led all the old people and children in the village to greet him, but it was official... I still remember the old village head enthusiastically holding the hand of the leader in a suit and saying... The devils are back again? You are back again! Welcome, welcome..."

"Pfft..." The people who heard it beside him all laughed, and Mu Fan's eyes were also bent into the shape of a crescent moon.

"I really want to go back and have a look..." The bearded man's voice seemed a bit coquettish, the bearded man put the wrapped orange into the bearded man's mouth, Mu Fan felt a chill when he saw it... two big men are so disgusting.

"Okay, go back and have a look some other day, I'll accompany you."

"Really?! Awesome!"

He raised his eyes to observe the bearded man who was having a convulsion, with a straight nose, jet-black starry eyes, and deep facial features. Looking closely, he wasn't ugly, and he seemed familiar...

Wait, what!After removing the beard, Mu Fan carefully looked at the person in front of him again, Yang Yiwei!

Mu Fan stared blankly at his former friend, something surged in his heart, the past seemed to be unfolding before his eyes again.

"Fucking disgusting, this thing is gay..."

"Look at that sissy, his mother is gay, who knows what's wrong with it, it's disgusting..."

"Hey, don't put your things here, dirty my place..."

"Is it okay to pee in his jug? Hehe."

"Will it be too much!?"

"Tch, who knows if he has eaten the man's thing, what is this..."

That was when Mu Fan just came out of the closet. His mother's cruel words, Lin Xiangyu's imprisonment, and the ridicule of his classmates all made him exhausted physically and mentally. There were often footsteps deliberately stepped on Mu Fan's bed, and the water in the pot often turned into scattered water. Facing all these things, Mu Fan just smiled wryly in his heart every time, but he still treated them calmly on the surface. Behavior intensifies.

Until one day, Mu Fan woke up and saw his empty wrist, and he couldn't breathe under the pressure of something almost desperate. He didn't know how he begged people to return the things in a low voice. Personal mocking expression, "You cherish the things that the man who fucked you gave you, he is just playing with you, you still treat such cheap things as treasures, and plate them with gold armor, haha..."

When this sentence fell, Mu Fan suddenly couldn't hear anything, and there was a sound in his head, and all the lingering words were that sentence...

Nothing, nothing, nothing...

A sound like an explosion echoed in my ears, with red eyes, I picked up the triangle iron on the broken bed in the dormitory and hit the boy on the head, killing him...killing him...whatever was screaming and churning in my chest was all them , without them...how could he go to that kind of place...all these disgusting people...

What about being gay?So what if you like boys?This is obviously only his own business, and they have never hindered them, and they have never done anything harmful to the world, why should they treat them like this...

Someone stopped Mu Fan's hand, Mu Fan looked at him with red eyes, "Mu Fan, are you crazy?"

Yes, I'm crazy, I'm really crazy, Mu Fan threw away the only person in this dormitory who didn't speak ill of him.

"You don't think about yourself, don't you also think about Lin Xiangyu?" The boy looked at him deeply with dark eyes, "Lin Xiangyu will come out next year, and you will be shot dead, is that interesting!" looked at the boy.The boy looked at Mu Fan and stared into the other's eyes. The man obviously didn't shed tears, but he seemed to see the pain in his heart, and the heart in his chest that was breathing quickly was bleeding bright red...

The thing in his hand fell to the ground and made a cold sound, ignoring the frightened people in the dormitory, Mu Fan opened the door and went out...

"Don't take the joke too far. Lin Xiangyu will come out next year. You can figure it out..." The boy finished speaking word by word, turned around and chased him out. He didn't look for long. The boy was looking at the green belt next to the downstairs door. Seeing that lonely and thin figure, he walked over and squatted down gently, not knowing how to speak, his brain was thinking about what to say to not be embarrassed, but Mu Fan spoke first: "Just now, thank you..." The sincere tone made the contours deep The boy was a little embarrassed. He had watched the people in the dormitory sneer at Mu Fan but did not lend a helping hand. This time, he was just afraid that the matter would become too big and no one would be able to escape responsibility...

"I was impulsive this time, but that watch is really important to me..." Mu Fan said lightly but his eyes were gentle. Covered in dirt like a dirty monkey, he pulled me aside and mysteriously gave me the box that contained this watch. I was still thinking about what it was, and when I opened it, it was this cheap watch that you said... "The boy looked at Mu Fan with dull pain in his heart, "I don't blame you, it is really worthless. I was also very disappointed at the time, or maybe it was because the disappointment was too obvious. Hehe, he hurriedly explained that this thing is worthless. He spent everything except the money his mother withheld, I still remember when I said, "What are you doing buying the watch, give it to me!" Guess what he said?" Mu Fan looked at him with burning eyes, full of light His eyes made the boy sad, and the boy shook his head.

"He said 'Yeah! Yeah! I'm going to die for you and we won't have any children after that, okay? Let's be old men together, just the two of us, and then you won't be able to walk anymore and I'll carry it on your back You, I will die one day later than you. After I pack you up, I will swallow a sleeping pill to find you, and then we will be together in the next life.'Look, how stupid he is..."

The boy thought that Mu Fan was crying, but when he looked closely at Mu Fan's face, he found that Mu Fan was smiling...

Mu Fan talked a lot that day, as if he wanted to relive all the good things he could recall.

"I'm sorry, I read some things with you. I'm very scared. I'm afraid that one day if I forget these pasts, I can still hold on. If you feel sick, forget it, hehe, like us This kind of person will only make people feel ridiculous when they talk about pain..." Mu Fan's words made his heart bleed...

From that day on, Mu Fan had his first friend after coming out of the closet...Yang Yiwei...